When we think of the Middle East, as Lebanese we often met with a harsh juxtaposition between seemingly endless riches from the oil industry and the harsh brutality of conflict and war. Lebanese people have been arrested in their economic crisis. They forget the beautiful nature hiding between the sea and sand. I choose Lebanon because it’s simply my land, my country, that I want to spot the light on the way I hope to see it, clean and green without pollution.
Itβs weird how you are still able to attract all those huge amounts of wounds and scars and yet still not feeling it. Itβs like tangled pains that hits you softly from time to time, yet you feel nothing no more. You get lost in your head when youβre trying to figure out how everything worked against you, where everyone else was waiting you to give up. Others were watching and planning how to push you away to achieve their goals. Bitterness all around. Feeling down, upset, tired of being squeezed out, pulled into the dark by the wind of a trusty fire wrapped around your neck until it burns you down. When you wake up from your nightmare and realize the reality, you start changing the trajectory of your consciousness and continue living inside your mind. You might decide to challenge yourself and change the conversation to trivial things and trips above your own words, or even you start asking questions about why you!
You might blame yourself for being toxic and thatβs not true. You might hate yourself for being wrong but youβre not. In fact, you donβt deserve all that negativity that comes to surround your life. You just need to figure out how you were able to fight for another life, why you wanted to kill your past and no matter how many times you might be killed. Itβs over and over, knowing that youβre fighting against your ego alone. No one besides you. Even you, you were running away from your reality, to hide your self in dust.
You were searching for your old you and him. You didnβt find him there beautiful you were just seeing what you wanted to observe. But when you saw clearly you were looking directly at your twin flame that doesnβt seem to be them but you. Itβs the divine truth of your existence. Thatβs you and your unique spirit. Yet there is nothing wrong with you. Allow yourself to heal from your past actions and let go of all your fears. So you can attract your own happiness and achieve your dreams without worrying about what might happen in your future. Itβs your choice now or never. Thatβs why itβs called present. Because itβs given to you to enjoy it. But it wonβt given to you if there is still there active actions lingering in your past. Asking yourself why you are so anxious, depressed, stressed.. and why you are struggling with your thoughts and feelingsβ¦ Hereβs what you should know. Itβs Karma again knocking your door. βwelcome her back to your home!β Itβs your actions that lingers inside your head. You didnβt even detoxify yourself before. Now go with the flow, be patient, you will open up your mind to the right light. Youβll find yourself looking beyond your eyes. Youβre able to see clearly, no more headaches, always hydrated with water to move with the flow. Warm your soul, avoid shaking and biting your nails. Protect yourself and show her that youβre not alone, that whenever Karma knocks your door youβre always ready to warm her heart. You got to lay down above her, laying your cold hands on hers, making her relaxed with your eyes, calm her with your shaky arms. She will treat you the same. She is sweet hearted but bullied before, she was so cute but she was treated badly. Sit with her in the dark until she lightens up all the darkness inside you. Listen carefully to her breathing as she exhales her thoughts and inhale your emotions. Calm down and show her that she is not alone, that you both suffered a traumatic experience and itβs time to heal from that trauma. She might be uncomfortable. She might refuse to talk, she will upset you and bite her nails when she gets frustrated. Donβt panic if she gets angry and started crying from her headache. She is just trying to brake the walls between her and you. Itβs when you start hearing her heart beats in your head and her breathing starts to get worse. Let her rest for now, hug her tightly until she feels comfortable. Donβt look at her eyes she will fall apart and let you down. Try to keep your head up and breathe deeper. Donβt make her talk about it till feel better. She might disappear, if you donβt give her space, she will retreat and seem aloof. Give her wider space be patient and she will open up. Brush her hair behind her ears and donβt let hide her face. Let her feel your warmth love and care that you hold onto her. Be strong and positive, she get frustrated from negative thoughts. She needs you to protect her and set her free. She wants to make sure that you are safe and strong enough to let go of your wounds. Guid her home through your inner light. You will forget what it means to be broken. Trust her. Love her deeply and let her go.
Trust the process and believe that the universe is guiding you to the right direction. Your soul knows the path forward, whereas your mind will keep holding you back. Let go of all the dark thoughts and just focus and breathe. These dark moments that you are living now will make you feel that you have lost your path to the lightest place you are seeking for. Trust that lightness is coming along and forever.
It will push you back on track and align your goals and purposes. Stay awaken to allow this light to flow through you. Youβre going to survive this storm, when you get to know your self more, itβs when you start feeling safe with yourself. Itβs when you start loving your inner child and build a peaceful relationship with your own self. All the pain will fade away. You will heal and you will be strong enough to let go of all what broken your heart. Youβll be wiser, happier and full with passion and strength. You deserve to be loved and respected, you deserve to live in peace. Find your spiritual tools that serve you well and start practicing them constantly. Step into your inner circle and explore your truth. The time has come.
Love yourself first to be able to love others. Every thing is moving in cycles, itβs not mutual or linear movements. Everything in this world is moving in cyclical patterns. Your energy is the reason why everything is moving and changing also itβs your energy that keeps things stable without being moved. Keep attracting so that you donβt get stuck in your place.
When you sacrifice emotionally for others, you will never be a good person. In fact, it sounds like βThereβs not enough to go around, so Iβll have to give up part of myself.β
Your action is great and full of love, but putting yourself last, the more the universe will bring to you in situations to continue doing so. The more you sacrifice on yourself the more youβll be sacrificed by others. You gain nothing, only loss of your own self.
Itβs not selfishness. The most beautiful thing in life is to let others smile and feel comfortable. But What if you made them satisfied but you are unable to be satisfied. You will suffer, because you are unable to make progress on your goals. Helping others is good, but donβt do it at heavy expense to your own life, donβt ever let others be a priority in your life, or else youβre telling the universe you will do it without love. You will do it right if you think about yourself as priority, as soon as you can be satisfied with what youβre achieving and enjoy your passion and getting the best revenues from your business or your career that allows you to grow and develop in a way that you are able to help your family or your friends at the same time then youβll get into the highest levels of success in all aspects of life. Where the attraction comes into your life as a gift from the universe because youβre attracting love from the world that surrounds you.
If you and your family are mourning the passing of your younger brother, you will be able to use your all emotional power to comfort your family. But what about you? Your whole family will be filled with your love, and you will be left to suffer alone forever. Because youβre sending signals out that you are willing to emotionally suffer, so you will continue to be placed in positions where you will continue to suffer for the same circumstances and results.
The moment you get to love yourself is when you put yourself in positions of strength and power, where you are able to make what you believe in and what you love. Destiny has no boundaries when it comes to self love. Be in control of yourself in order to keep yourself growing. Be thankful for what you have and keep evolving.
Let their toxicity go. Blow their negativity away.
Malak El Siblani
At the beginning it will hurt. It will bother you and make you feel bad about yourself as if youβre going to die. Panic attacks and depression will consume your body, anxiety will burn your brain down to a level where you canβt control your emotions anymore. Laying on your bed, hugging your pillow trying desperately to sleep but numbness all what you can feel. Body aches hands shaking, headache, chest aching, throat sore, stomach burning and all that because their time came to an end in your life chapter.
Itβs important to learn and understand how much pain they cause to you. Itβs necessary to let them go even if you want them to stay with you forever.
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It hurts to an extent that it will leave you crying till you fall asleep. Nose blocking, puffy eyes. Heartbreak is inevitable when it comes to those who were your everything. Itβs kind of hurt that leaves you unable to see the truth that you were an option in their life. Itβs a kind of pain that will never leaves you alone, it will follows you everywhere, to remind you of their toxic words and their poisonous actions. But of the things that you have to learn is that you canβt expect them to love you back the same way you did. The way you love them doesnβt determine their way they are going to love you back. Itβs not the goodbye that hurts the most rather than training your mind to stop thinking about them, itβs how can you imagine your life without them. In fact they can move forward without you even. The moment they took the decision to leave is when they had already give up on you.
Feeling unmotivated even when youβre doing things that you usually enjoy
Suffering from anxiety or panic attacks
Uncomfortable and mood swings
Unbalanced sleeping hours, either it takes you hours to fall asleep or your sleep is broken all through the nights.
Almost impatient
Suffers from Severe
Heart syndrome attack
Lack of oxygen, difficulty breathing
Health issues, poor digestion conditions, low grade stomach ache
Headaches and migraines
Vision problems and hearing issues
Cosmopolitan π
There is no denying that among the most challenging lessons that human beings are eventually going to have to learn, itβs essential for one to know that not everyone is going to turn out as you initially expected. While at face value, it may seem like you are someone they are very much invested in, the truth may be otherwise. This is a lesson that you will learn over time as you meet more and more different kinds of people. You have to maintain a strong chin and do not let your ego get the better of you. You should only be willing to fully invest yourself in the people who are also willing to spend as much in you. There is no point in prioritizing a person who doesnβt think that much of you as well.
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Weβve all been through that. We have found ourselves in relationships where there are blatant imbalances in the dynamics of social interaction. We can find ourselves giving and giving, and in the end, we barely get any scraps. We may not even know when we victimize other people in this manner. They may be devoting a lot of time and emotional energy to us even when we donβt think much of them. The key is to find out early on whether you are a personβs priority or not. If you find that you arenβt, then move on and make any necessary adjustments. If you find that some of these examples listed here apply to you, then you should reassess your relationship now.
Until then all I knew before he entered my life was a toxic kind of love. Draining, selfishness, difficult and painful. He was different. Kinda like mutual flaming souls. Something that makes me feel home. Itβs psychotic love, passionately admiring my heart peace, much more than warmth and familiarity to honesty but bullshits trustworthinessβ¦ Itβs much more than stability and safety It is meant to be!
When we think of the Middle East, as Lebanese we often met with a harsh juxtaposition between seemingly endless riches from the oil industry and the harsh brutality of conflict and war.Lebanese people have been arrested in their economic crisis.They forget the beautiful nature hiding between the sea and sand.I choose Lebanon because it’s simply […]
Itβs weird how you are still able to attract all those huge amounts of wounds and scars and yet still not feeling it. Itβs like tangled pains that hits you softly from time to time, yet you feel nothing no more. You get lost in your head when youβre trying to figure out how everything […]
Trust the process and believe that the universe is guiding you to the right direction. Your soul knows the path forward, whereas your mind will keep holding you back. Let go of all the dark thoughts and just focus and breathe. These dark moments that you are living now will make you feel that you […]
The universe is perfect and so you are. Love yourself first to be able to love others. Every thing is moving in cycles, itβs not mutual or linear movements. Everything in this world is moving in cyclical patterns. Your energy is the reason why everything is moving and changing also itβs your energy that keeps […]
Not by chance but by choice. I decided to live better than yesterday and to live with opened heart, to attract all the possibilities that are good for me.
Today Iβm choosing to listen to my inner voice, not to others random opinions and gossips.
Today Iβm choosing my own path towards happiness and high self worth. Itβs to be inspired and motivated by the spirit of love, not to be manipulated by hateful thoughts and emotions. Today I choose to help others and not to be used by anyone, today Iβm willing to offer those who needs healing and comfort the best possible way to heal and help them in achieving their dreams. Today Iβm grounding my bad past self to focus on my positive present and focus on my healthy future instead. Today Iβm in love with everything that surrounds me. Today Iβm happy and grateful for everything that I had been through. Today Iβm evolving into an amazing human being. Today Iβm full with passion and love.πͺ· Iβm alive today.
Flawsome After a heavy storm. The Wind blows up and Fade away. Stillness of a dark soul. Freezing mist Grey clouds. The rains falls on my shallow face, A chaotic calmness resonate. Desperately, the sun rises above my horizon, Warm breeze murmurs down βHush!β whispers to me: βcalm down, calm down.β
One of her kind. Elegant mind, Classy, Crazy, so sweetheart, Harsh and cruel, all together at one time. 50% savage 50% kind. Direct, so much Complicated Yet Beautiful but Wild. I would love her forever but I wasnβt the only one.
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