لو دُفنت إسقاطًا بقدر ما أحييت بعدها، سأكون مدفوعًا بباطل و مدفون من عدم …
كيف اموت واحيا عن عمد، ان لم اولد من باطنها دفعة واحدة؟
هل حيّكت بجذورها حبالي من الوجودية والسبب؟
لا انا حي كي امضي دونها، ولا انا ميت لاحيا بها
انني ميت اليوم !
وحتمًا غدا ساحيا من سكرات الموت المؤقت
لا انا واهم ولا حتى بكافر
و ان كان في كلامي لغطًا
فالشك باليقين ان لم يكن فيه شك كيف يمكن اعتباره كفرًا ؟
وان ردتم قتلي يقينًا،
لا تحاسبوني بجاهلية اجدادي رجاءً.
هل لي ان اختار بدايتي ان كنتم قد اخترتم نهايتي؟
اهناك بداية غير جهنم لاحيا من دون سواها؟
لا تحاسبوني انتم،
ايحق لي محاسبة نفسي بعيدًا عن عملية الإسقاط السرمدي؟
هل يجوز عدْم المعدوم بعدم أمنية اعدامه؟
اقذفوا في جسدي شرارة الوأد الاولى
و اضرموا النيران في جثث لم امكث فيها.
ثم انثروا رفاتي رمادًا بين جثث الأحياء، لعلها تموت بعد كربتي من عدم.
أصنامهم تُعبَد، عبيدهم أحرار! سارقوا خبز الجياع على حب أصنامهم، صدقة! مباركة خمارات الدين من مستنقعات الدم في مقابر الأحياء ايها النائمون تحت وسادة الصلاة قوموا من باطن الأرض صلوا لاجل خلاصنا نحن الملحدون بأغنامهم كيف تُقبل صلاتنا!؟ اشفعوا لنا عند حماة الله لعل أصنامهم ترضى. اه يا جندارياتي المتمردة كيف سرقوا الله وعباده ولم تشبع بطونهم !؟ كم هيكلًا يجب ان نشيد بالذهب حتى نؤمن ؟ اين نحن من قلوب المظلومين والمساكين و الجياع؟!. كيف سنرقع قلوبنا بعدها؟! نحن المصنفون كفارًا كيف ستقبل صلاتنا؟! بعدما اخذوا مالنا والذهب اه يا نعمة الإلحاد كم علينا ان نكفر حتى نُؤمن !
تقمّصنا التاريخ،
فـ ما عاد الحاضر يكتبنا.
هرُمنا.
فـ ما حال ما مضى منّا
أيننا كنّا فينا؟
كيف كان يكتبنا؟.
بياء السين، بكبد النون
بحكمة الضاد
كنّا قد كُتِبنا.
كان فـ كُنّا
و بقدرة القاف سُكبنا…
كملحمة ادبية
لـ يكتبنا
كمدونة نثرية
لـ يدوننا…
على جدران المساجد و اجراس الكنائس
كقصيدة شعرية
لـ ينحتنا
بحمرة الزنبق وعبق البخور
في خلوات المتعبينَ
على بيادر التأمل فينا
ينثرنا
يمضي ما مضى عنّا
فـ يُكتب حاضرنا فينا.
She called herself an angel, and wandered the world from girlhood till death. She lived every kind of life and dreamt every kind of dream.
She was wild in her wandering, a drop of free water.
It took her years to learn how to exist.
Took her years to heal from the darkness she had seen as a kid.
It took her a while to forget the abused girl and times that she had been punched and hit.
Take good care of her. Rest her head on your
shores as you clean her wounds.
Bandage her skin and make her bruises stop turning into colours of purple and blue.
Cradle her like a child in it's mother's womb.
Kiss her misery goodbye.
Kiss her as the entire ocean watches in awe seeing her finally settling down.
Seeing her stand up on her feet , seeing her fighting hard to breathe.
Sincerely with love,
Her unconscious mind
Trust the process and believe that the universe is guiding you to the right direction. Your soul knows the path forward, whereas your mind will keep holding you back. Let go of all the dark thoughts.
Focus and breathe. All the darkness will push you to the edge but you won’t lost your path. Trust that the lightness is coming along and forever.
It will guide you to the next phase to align your goals and purposes. Stay awaken to allow this light to flow through you. You’re going to survive this storm, when you get to understand yourself better, it’s when you start thinking about your potentials and capabilities that you’re able to build. You will learn how to be more efficient at managing your time. You are safe, confident and able to move forward. It’s when you open your heart and start feeling peace in your soul that you’re ready to let go of all your fears and begin your healing process. As you recognize the importance of love you will provide love to your inner child and build a peaceful relationship with your past. All the pain will fade away. You will heal and you will be strong enough to let go of all what broken you. You’ll be wiser, happier and full with passion and strength. You deserve to be loved and respected, you deserve to live in peace. Find your spiritual tools that serve you well and start practicing them constantly. Step into your inner circle and explore your truth. The time has come.
Love yourself first to be able to love others. Every thing is moving in cycles, it’s not mutual or linear movements. Everything in this world is moving in cyclical patterns. Your energy is the reason why everything is moving and changing also it’s your energy that keeps things stable without being moved. Keep attracting so that you don’t get stuck in your place.
When you sacrifice emotionally for others, you will never be a good person. In fact, it sounds like “There’s not enough to go around, so I’ll have to give up part of myself.”
Your action is great and full of love, but putting yourself last, the more the universe will bring to you in situations to continue doing so. The more you sacrifice on yourself the more you’ll be sacrificed by others. You gain nothing, only loss of your own self.
It’s not selfishness. The most beautiful thing in life is to let others smile and feel comfortable. But What if you made them satisfied but you are unable to be satisfied. You will suffer, because you are unable to make progress on your goals. Helping others is good, but don’t do it at heavy expense to your own life, don’t ever let others be a priority in your life, or else you’re telling the universe you will do it without love. You will do it right if you think about yourself as priority, as soon as you can be satisfied with what you’re achieving and enjoy your passion and getting the best revenues from your business or your career that allows you to grow and develop in a way that you are able to help your family or your friends at the same time then you’ll get into the highest levels of success in all aspects of life. Where the attraction comes into your life as a gift from the universe because you’re attracting love from the world that surrounds you.
If you and your family are mourning the passing of your younger brother, you will be able to use your all emotional power to comfort your family. But what about you? Your whole family will be filled with your love, and you will be left to suffer alone forever. Because you’re sending signals out that you are willing to emotionally suffer, so you will continue to be placed in positions where you will continue to suffer for the same circumstances and results.
The moment you get to love yourself is when you put yourself in positions of strength and power, where you are able to make what you believe in and what you love. Destiny has no boundaries when it comes to self love. Be in control of yourself in order to keep yourself growing. Be thankful for what you have and keep evolving.
Let their toxicity go. Blow their negativity away.
Malak El Siblani
At the beginning it will hurt. It will bother you and make you feel bad about yourself as if you’re going to die. Panic attacks and depression will consume your body, anxiety will burn your brain down to a level where you can’t control your emotions anymore. Laying on your bed, hugging your pillow trying desperately to sleep but numbness all what you can feel. Body aches hands shaking, headache, chest aching, throat sore, stomach burning and all that because their time came to an end in your life chapter.
It’s important to learn and understand how much pain they cause to you. It’s necessary to let them go even if you want them to stay with you forever.
Art
It hurts to an extent that it will leave you crying till you fall asleep. Nose blocking, puffy eyes. Heartbreak is inevitable when it comes to those who were your everything. It’s kind of hurt that leaves you unable to see the truth that you were an option in their life. It’s a kind of pain that will never leaves you alone, it will follows you everywhere, to remind you of their toxic words and their poisonous actions. But of the things that you have to learn is that you can’t expect them to love you back the same way you did. The way you love them doesn’t determine their way they are going to love you back. It’s not the goodbye that hurts the most rather than training your mind to stop thinking about them, it’s how can you imagine your life without them. In fact they can move forward without you even. The moment they took the decision to leave is when they had already give up on you.
Environmental 
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