الازدواجية

"السكيزوفرينيا" سرطان الازدواجية، تقع في منطقة العِنان الوحشي في الدماغ، المنطقة المسؤولة عن مشاعر الحزن والاكتئاب.. هي منطقة دماغية أساسية لاتخاذ قرارات العملية المعرفية الناتجة عن اختيار المعتقد.

لا ارى هناك اي مبرر لعدم قدرة الأشخاص على ترويضها.
هي معايير واضحة تجعلني أكثر وضوحا في ترسيخ مفاهيم متوازنة بين جسدي ونفسي. حتى في مشاعري ان احبك لا يعني انني اكرهك او اني سأكرهك فيما بعد. هو منطق واحد في زمن محدد لماهية المعتقد.
يتغير في حال الصدمة، لا يشترط تبدلها بل يدخل الادراك لماهيتها في حيز السبات الكلي لفترة محددة.

كيف يمكن لانسان ان يكون رماديًا لهذه الدرجة حتى في تكوين شخصيته. الحياة ليست مسرح تتبدل فيه الشخصيات والادوار. قد تتناقل الارواح من عالم الى عالم لترتقي لكن الشيخصيات لا تتناقل ابدا الا في حالة الانفصام” الشيزوفرينيا”
كنت دائما مندفعة في قراراتي الى اقصى الحدود. لم يكن للرمادية اي مبرر. كنت احزن كامل الحزن واعيش كامل الوجع وافرح كل الفرح. واني أؤمن بان هذه الابعاد هي التي كانت تدفعني نحو التصالح مع ذاتي.
حتى في تعبيري عن الاشياء وطرحي للمسلمات الفكرية وفي اشكالياتي وتوهري حتى ولو كلفني ان ارتطم واقع في مكان خارج حدود دائرتي ، لانني اثق كل الثقة ان الانسان بقيادته لنفسه لا يمكنه الهروب من ذات الدائرة الذاتية التي اتى منها، يمكنه العودة اليها بشكل مندفع كاملًا بعد التعافي كي يصحح الخلل الكامن في معدل الزوايا السابقة.
هي خصال حيوانية بحتة ، أساسية دفعت عالم الحيوان نحو الارتقاء بمستوى الاداء النفسي. “السكون” للوصول الى مبتغاه اي بالتأمل والتروي لاخذ قرار نهائي للانقضاض على الفريسة.

Let them go

Let their toxicity go. Blow their negativity away.

Malak El Siblani

At the beginning it will hurt. It will bother you and make you feel bad about yourself as if you’re going to die. Panic attacks and depression will consume your body, anxiety will burn your brain down to a level where you can’t control your emotions anymore. Laying on your bed, hugging your pillow trying desperately to sleep but numbness all what you can feel. Body aches hands shaking, headache, chest aching, throat sore, stomach burning and all that because their time came to an end in your life chapter.

It’s important to learn and understand how much pain they cause to you. It’s necessary to let them go even if you want them to stay with you forever.

Art

It hurts to an extent that it will leave you crying till you fall asleep. Nose blocking, puffy eyes. Heartbreak is inevitable when it comes to those who were your everything. It’s kind of hurt that leaves you unable to see the truth that you were an option in their life. It’s a kind of pain that will never leaves you alone, it will follows you everywhere, to remind you of their toxic words and their poisonous actions.
But of the things that you have to learn is that you can’t expect them to love you back the same way you did. The way you love them doesn’t determine their way they are going to love you back. It’s not the goodbye that hurts the most rather than training your mind to stop thinking about them, it’s how can you imagine your life without them. In fact they can move forward without you even. The moment they took the decision to leave is when they had already give up on you.

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Kinda love being like

Until then all I knew before he entered my life was a toxic kind of love.
Draining, selfishness, difficult and painful.
He was different.
Kinda like mutual flaming souls.
Something that makes me feel home.
It’s psychotic love, passionately admiring my heart peace, much more than warmth and familiarity to honesty but bullshits trustworthiness…
It’s much more than stability and safety
It is meant to be!

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• الذكاء الاصطناعي

  أحقاً مازال هناك من يؤمن اننا حتى اليوم مازلنا نعيش في زمن العولمة والانفتاح والروبوتات واننا نعيش اليوم في اعلى مراحل النمو والعلم والتطور وبتطورنا سنصل الى معضلة الكون الاعلى؟هذا وهم وكل ما نعيشه هو مجرد وهم… الدليل الوحيد الذي لا يمكن الشك فيه بتاتًا أننا مازلنا حتى الان نحاول ايجاد طريقة لمعرفة سر الموت…

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• الازدواجية

  “السكيزوفرينيا” سرطان الازدواجية، تقع في منطقة العِنان الوحشي في الدماغ، المنطقة المسؤولة عن مشاعر الحزن والاكتئاب.. هي منطقة دماغية أساسية لاتخاذ قرارات العملية المعرفية الناتجة عن اختيار المعتقد. #كتاباتي #wordpress #bloggers #viral

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Inner voice

Cosmopolitan 📍

Today I choose “live”.

Not by chance but by choice.
I decided to live better than yesterday and to live with opened heart, to attract all the possibilities that are good for me.

Today I’m choosing to listen to my inner voice, not to others random opinions and gossips.

Today I’m choosing my own path towards happiness and high self worth.
It’s to be inspired and motivated by the spirit of love, not to be manipulated by hateful thoughts and emotions.
Today I choose to help others and not to be used by anyone, today I’m willing to offer those who needs healing and comfort the best possible way to heal and help them in achieving their dreams.
Today I’m grounding my bad past self to focus on my positive present and focus on my healthy future instead.
Today I’m in love with everything that surrounds me. Today I’m happy and grateful for everything that I had been through. Today I’m evolving into an amazing human being.
Today I’m full with passion and love.🪷 I’m alive today.

One Day

No matter what
I’ll always try my best.
There are things 
I can’t explain. 
I’ve no idea how to start
there’s somethings hidden 
inside
Unable to express 
Not sure if I can understand 
I know 
it’s difficult 
to get rid of all my negative vibes
that makes me down 
anxious and depressed
Speechless most of the time 
But at least I try
I try even more 
Because I know 
Things will get better 
One day 
Sometimes I feel like my best
Isn’t good enough
I beat myself each time 
When I can’t offers help 
For someone I don’t know 
Why?
Because I can’t accept the reality 
And move on 
Always rebellious and tired of all
The bad things that’s 
centered around
I’m not perfect 
I also made mistakes 
But I believe 
things will get better
One day 
I have grown not to accept the reality
To be honest 
Human nature 
After all 
To keep my head up 
To smile
And move on
Even though there’s 
Hurt and pain underneath 
But I know
It always gets better
One day
There are people that 
I think about most of the time 
Who are no more present in 
My life
Due to choices made by themselves
Ongoing persuasions by others
Or because it was my fault 
I moved on 
Because I know 
Keeping distances
Is a great choice 
Sometimes 
After all I know 
Things will gets better
One day
Let it out
How did I fall so low!
Why does silly things makes me upset!
So sensitive about many things around 
Any small action crumbles me down
Let it out
Things will gets better 
No matter what
It’ll gets better 
One day

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Trust your Journey

Trust Your Journey
Forget what others will think about you, you’re not them.

Angel Siblani

Stop torturing yourself! It wasn’t your fault. Remember that you need to go easy on yourself instead of blaming yourself for feeling lost, confused, or not achieving everything you wanted to achieve.

There’s so much more to live for than what you’ve done so far, and there’s always room for growth and learning. Don’t get frustrated.
You’ll get what you want eventually, and everything will make perfect sense. Every experience will help you to get where you’re supposed to be. Practice the balance of receiving and giving. Every loss, every heartbreak, and every mistake will lead you to where you’re supposed to be. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes, and don’t expect success to fall from the sky, instead prepare for it, it needs time but don’t worry; you’ll be able to find your way around.
Believe in yourself and always look at the other side of your fears and face it.

Stay positive